Last Day

Not as bad as the title makes it sound. *sigh* One more day to go before Spring Break is over, and I am definitely ready to go back to school. I don't know if I could take another day without seeing people. I think that's part of why I always start feeling so sad and miserable. I spend a lot of time alone, and then I get to thinking, and my mind always ends up contemplating death. Is there maybe some medical reason for why my thoughts always wander back to death and dying? Besides depression, I mean. I already know about that one. I read someplace that getting enough sleep makes you happier, and that sleep-deprived people are more likely to be unhappy. That bit made me go "Oh... Maybe that's why I'm not very happy half the time. I'm a definite Night Owl, and school is during the day. That leaves me a few hours before school starts, and the few hours after school as the times that I prefer to sleep. I mean, today I went to sleep at 9 am and woke up around 3 or 4 in the afternoon. That's my ideal sleep schedule, though I wouldn't mind getting another hour of sleep at the end. I don't mind being nocturnal. Heck, I'm not tired right now and it's 3:30 in the morning! I think I might be part bat or part owl or something, with the hours that I like to keep. I wonder if there's some sort of gene or chemical in the brain that make you more or less likely to want to be awake at night and asleep during the day. My only problem with the night is the silence. It's maddening in my house, since I can literally hear the silence pressing in on my eardrums, when I don't have the ringing in my ears. The ringing is most likely related to Minieres Disease, which my dad has and my mom might have. It affects your balance and stuff, and one of the possible symptoms is ringing in your ears. But back to the silence pressing against my ears. I can have music playing in the background, and it still feels like the silence of the house is crushing my hearing. That is my one complaint against the night. I love the silence and basically everything else about nighttime. The darkness, the solitude, the peace and quiet... It's just the crushing silence against my eardrums. Well, I think I'm going to sign off and go to sleep now, since I need to start getting back to sleeping for school hours. Last day of break and all, you know. Ta for now!